Are you Fighting or Losing the Battle?


As a mom, there are days that getting out of bed is hard. 

Days, where you just feel like you can't do the mothering thing today. Mornings, that you fight for joy and the energy to even get up. Nights, where you can't wait for bedtime to come. 

There are seasons that seem overwhelming and seasons that have rest. I don't know what season you are in currently but for me it is a overwhelming one. 

Some mornings it is hard to get up and to do what I feel like I do everyday, be a MOM and WIFE. 

You see it's these type of mornings where the Lord and I seem to have the same conversation lately: 


" Lord why can't this child sleep until at least 6am?"; " Lord, can I please catch a break and get some sleep"; "Can you please just let him fall back to sleep Lord"; 

OR:

 "Lord, do I have to get up and do this again?"  
Yet every time the answer seems the same, 
"Lindsey, this is what I have called you to, fight for me" and "My dear daughter, you can do this, just fight for joy".

You see it's in these conversations where I'm able to pull back the covers and plant my feet on the ground, stumble down the hall and pick up my youngest out of the crib, stumble back to find my glasses, because well I can't see anything without them, and head downstairs to make coffee. God gently speaks and says to me dear child I love you, I am with you today, or verses like Psalm 30:5b "...but JOY comes with the morning" my daughter.

It has been many of these early mornings that have given me the most joy and peace. Why - because I have been able to sit down and dig deep into his word and find truth amid all the lies that are being shot at me from the deceiver, who my friends is always there don't be fooled.

These verses tell you and me about Christ's love, 


John 15:9, "As the Father has Loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love."  
  
Ephesians 2:4-5 " But God, being in rich in his mercy, because of his great love for us, even when we dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved)"

Psalm 4:7 "You have put gladness on my heart..."

Nehemiah 8:10b "...Do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."
 

 So even though the struggle for sleep is real the Lord's plans always seem to be best for my soul not always my earthly temple. The gift of motherhood has been given to us by Christ, and we are called to do all things with gladness unto him. It may be the hardest job we will every face but even in the hardest moments we can look to him for strength and joy that can fill our souls.

My prayer is for any struggling mothers like me today - that you can FIGHT for JOY even in the moments where it is hard and all you want to do is pull the covers over your head and hide. My prayer is that you are able to cry out for help and hear him whisper back to you. And that you may encounter the great love he has for you.

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