To the mom with a sick child...

Oh dear friend. I see you sitting here in the waiting room trying to be strong for your little one yet inside you are worried and anxious.

I see you because I am you. I have sat in multiple waiting rooms, waiting for that nurse or doctor to come out and call my name while my oldest son undergoes another diagnostic test or procedure. I know how hard it is to sit and wait, feeling helpless. 

You see Toby has been in and out of surgeries, diagnostic tests, and scans since he was born. He has endured so much since we discovered his mass over 3 years ago. He is so brave and strong and this journey has made him who he is today. It has been two years since we finished chemo --- we received the good news that we could stop chemo on August 20, 2014, Praise the Lord!! We now do follow up tests and procedures in order to monitor things. It's in those moments where my mind wanders to the days where we practically lived in waiting rooms.

Today, as I sit here again among you, I want you to know that you are not alone in your journey. I know that feeling --- where you feel so along and that nobody else understands how your feeling. Well I do, I understand and I am here to tell you that you're not alone in your feelings or struggles as you watch your little one go into another test or surgery.

I want you to know that although you want to be strong it is okay to be scared and cry and cast your cares upon the one who knows it all. You see my Father, he is strong enough to carry you through this no matter the outcome. He has been there in my moments when I just feel I can't take anymore news, leaving me crying out to him and casting my worries, and fears upon him. He has been my Comforter holding me and wrapping his arms around me when I just needed that.  He also has been the one who I have placed my trust in, as Toby was lead behind those doors with the nurse, he would whisper to me "I'm here." He has given me peace when I needed it in the rough days of Toby's journey when I felt under attack and plagued with worry and doubt. Yes, he has been with our family and has wrapped his arms around Toby but dear mom he also is here with you.
  
Hebrews 13:5 says, "I will never leave you nor forsake you". Isaiah 41:10 tells us to "fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." In 2 Corinthians 1:3-4, it says "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God." You see time and time again we are called to cry out to the Lord, to cast our cares and worries and doubts on him because he is our Comforter, our Refuge, and Our God.

 So dear mom as I sit here thinking of you I want you to know that you aren't alone. I want you to know that there is someone who can comfort you every hour and moment that you sit there worried. My prayer today is that you seek him and cry out to him because He hears you! 

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